How weird it was—thinking she had
already picked up all the pieces and
yet here he stood.
She felt Aiden as a presence in the
back of her head but couldn’t conjure
any coherent thoughts. Unable to tell
if this was messing it all up—
—or laying the final piece.
Either way, she seems to be pulled
Locking her arms around him without
a word because she’ll fuck everything
up if she says anything now. Trust was
at best a sensitive subject, but right now
she doesn’t need it. She just needs him,
even if it’s only for this moment.
His arms quickly found their way around
her small frame, despite being surprised
by the bold move. He hadn’t expected her
to hold him this way, but now that she
was in his arms, he wasn’t letting her go—
After a long moment, he pulled away,
but only slightly, leaving room to look
at her face— her beautiful face. Sure,
he always knew of her beauty, but at
that exact moment, he could see it
up close. A smile formed, one that
was probably too big and his hands
gave her shoulders a gentle, reassuring
“Jodie. Just.. thanks.”
What good did building walls do anyway
if they all just came crumbling down so
e a s i l y .
She knew, had known, should have known
— and now this. In a thousand ways, a
thousand nightmares she had imagined how
her past would catch up to her and yet she
never expected it to take form of the one
person that could actually bring her back.
”I think… a part of me will always love you.
But I’ve spent so much time trying to pick
up pieces of myself—
I’m scared it’ll bring me back.”
“I understand. God, I do. That’s all
I’ve been doing since you last saw
—but you don’t have to do it alone, Jodie.”
It was a relief to hear that
she still loved him— more than
a relief, it was.. almost too
much to handle.
He wasn’t an emotional guy.
Few things struck his chord,
and she was one of them.
But she was hesitant.
He was, too.
She had every damn right to be.
He took a step closer to her,
but did not overstep that boundaries
between the two, even though
he wanted to simply pull her in
for a hug.
“Jodie, I’m here for you.
Always have been, always will.”
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So it came to this.
Maybe the weight of the words left unsaid
between them became too heavy after all.
Even though she thought she would be
strong enough to hold it.
She took a couple of steps past him before
she came to a stop as well. Turning towards
him with her shoulders slightly pulled in.
She was careful to speak the words as her
own now. Aiden didn’t like this. Something
wanting her to leave but she didn’t.
”Look, maybe I shouldn’t have come back
here—I tried really hard to not fuck things
Truth was ( i’m better off alone ) she did
miss him. He had seldom felt more distant
than he did now, standing right in front of
“No. No, trust me, I’m more than happy
that we got to meet. Ecstatic that you’re.. here.
Here with me.”
How was he to word this
s c a r i n g her
away? He was used to
that— used to scaring
people away with his
past and his present
He had to try.
Even if it resulted
in the opposite
outcome that he
“Jodie, I.. I haven’t stopped—
thinking about you; not once.
—and I know things are complicated.
Things have never been easy,
not for me, or you, but..”
“I just want you to know that
what we had.. I still have..
and I still feel that way towards you.”
”No, it’s—it was this cabin in the forest, but
that was some time ago. Before I came to
see you last time.”
She hadn’t been back there even though she
had liked it there—but she was afraid of maybe
stepping over pieces of something broken if
she opened the door. It had been too long.
There wasn’t any going back. Normalcy was
not for Jodie Holmes, despite the dreams.
(was there any going back for h i m?)
“—it’s been a lot of places since then.”
Now, how long could she stare at that rock
on the sidewalk without it looking weird?
(i am n o t asking myself this)
She felt Aiden stir again
and shut her up.
he had felt the entity’s presence.
though not in the way that jodie did,
ryan was still aware of him.
“I guess he’d rather not talk
about it. Or maybe it’s you
who’d rather not.”
If he was to be honest with the woman
who stood beside him, then he would
tell her that all of this was not easy in
the slightest. He was holding back a lot
as they walked alongside each other—
with each step, it became harder
to stay silent. all he wanted to do
was tell her that he still loved her;
never stopped, not for a damn
she was all he thought about.
every day that passed by was
hell without her.
he wanted to wrap his arms around her,
tell her that everything would be okay,
that she’d never be alone.
and she wouldn’t, because
she had him and that wasn’t
going to change.
It was then that he stopped walking.
“—Jodie, I can’t do this.”
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She smiled, “I mean—I’m not sure you’d want to.
I’m no poet.”
(it is my mind d i s i n t e g r a t i n g)
The first place to come to mind is the cabin by
the river, although it seems like a lifetime ago.
Since then it has been mostly bleak motel rooms
and there’s nothing else that really sticks out.
But why was it so hard for her to tell him about that?
Maybe because that place had been her first
escape. Maybe because by now she would have
hoped to see something that would make it all
worth it, somehow. For now she shrugs,
”—I don’t know. There’s still a lot to see, right?”
Was she running?
She tried not to look at it that way.
Because running meant she was still too busy to
get to live the life she had always dreamed of. Even
though, looking at it now, she was still far off track.
”This place’s nice, though.”
“..you have your own way with words,”
and he meant that as a compliment.
He had never met a girl like her before,
and he was sure he would never meet another.
there was only one jodie.
His eyes scanned the area, a small shrug followed a pause.
Yeah, here wasn’t too bad. In short, he supposed it wouldn’t
matter where you were located if you couldn’t disconnect
yourself with the thoughts that followed you around.
It was never necessarily about the place,
but more so about who you were sharing
the experience with. Hell, Heaven, Earth or
stranded in the middle of the ocean, if he
was with her, then he knew he’d be able to
conquer any of those places.
But these were the thoughts that
he was so bent on forgetting. These
unanswered feelings; ones that he
believed she shared with him once
upon a time, but were forgotten over
“—is this the place you were talking about?”
“—so what’s the plan?”
“—what’s this going to prove?
other than you’re an idiot.”